Unforgiveness

I learnt about unforgiveness today. Basically, with unforgiveness, our lives is shortened, just like what C. S. Lewis puts it, its like drinking poison thinking that we're poisoning the other party.

Unforgiveness is a hidden pressure of stress, that is so often, simply waiting to burst out of our lives.

A friend explained that as long as there are any 3 of these things inside of us:
1) Resentment
2) Grudge
3) Revenge

We therefore are still in-too-deep with unforgiveness to the other party.

I also learnt that we can be spiritual, read lots of books, attend seminars on forgiveness, live life full of meditation. However, as long as we do not surrender ourselves with the fact that I do not deserve anything in this life... we will never get it.

I guess that's why the narrow road to heaven... is really NARROW.

Letting go the idea of being in control...

Like the Kunfu Master Wu-Gui said, Master has to let go the idea of being in control!
I too am often in the idea of being in control for too much at work. Every little details, every little problems, every little buzz that goes around, that does not suit my way of working/style, I deemed as wrong...

Sometimes, more often than not, the only solution for the stress that I am having, the stress of seeing too many things to be done, yet so lil time, is to let go and let 'things' happen.

Many at times, the reason i feel so stressed up, is that because I am carrying other's burden which do not belong to me in the first place.

I guess for me, taking is easy, letting go is a challenge!